Well, 2 days after my first treatment finds me doing well. So far, no nausea, in fact the opposite - I have been able to eat!! My cough is much better and I am still taking it easy, but feeling fine. God has been faithful to answer all the prayers being offered up for me, and I feel so blessed.
I can see Him using this trial to increase my faith in Him, which is hard for us humans who want to rely on ourselves, our doctors, our pastors, our friends. Fear seems to attack at every turn when things get tough, and can we really and truly put ourselves in God's hands at those times - or just give it lip service and do the easier thing and fall back on our earthly support system? It's hard!! He is stretching me in this. I'm putting myself in His hands every day again and again as much as I can - and I am growing through it. Blessings on every side!
Being in the trenches might not be so bad after all - with my general here right beside me for support and encouragement along the way. There are so many soldiers right behind the rise in back of me, barely visible, who have my back covered with prayer, ready to run in with supplies (food, etc.), sending notes of encouragement to me. Also, up ahead the field Sargent (my doctor) telling me and the general what moves to make and when - she can see the whole picture so we listen to her. Yes, we might be a little uncomfortable here in the trench, its inconvenient and dirty. Dark at times, but all we have to do is look up, we see God's hand in control, and He sends us messages through His Word when we need them. Seeing all this around us is awe inspiring! Yes, surely victory is ahead!!
Sunday, October 24, 2010
trial blog
Started chemotherapy today and it was fine. I guess I was expecting to be dizzy or something! I was diagnosed with Hodgkins Lymphoma about 2 weeks ago, although we knew there was a good chance I had lymphoma about a month ago. Happily, my oncologist says this cancer is very very treatable and even curable. We were happy to hear that. She assures me that my chances for totally getting rid of this are "excellent".
So, I started chemo armed with my faith in my Lord - who IS the healer - many many prayer warriors - and several anti-nausea drugs. I marched out of my house at 8 this morning (Oct. 22) with weapons in hand - my bible, some white jewelry (a reminder that god has given me a scripture that He will "turn my darkness into light") and my general (my wise and loving husband). The nurses were very careful and caring, I even got a 20 minute foot massage while there from a former patient in massage school trying to "give back". After 5 hours, Michael and I left with the smell of victory in our nostrils!
The remainder of the day has been good - I have been able to eat really well!! And we feel so good to FINALLY be started on treatment!
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